[23]dabao wanted2b a bus driver

Hi,

I told grandpa Dabao’s stated plan to work as a bus driver or 7-eleven shop assistant.

Grandpa replied “挺好。不好高骛远, 是好事。新加坡老百姓大多数为中低层收入。像你这样高收入的是少数,不能要求你孩子也像你.”

I told grandpa that most low-pay blue-collar workers in Singapore are worker-permit holders from China, India, Malaysia, the Philippines, or other SEAsia countries. Singaporeans seldom accept those blue-collar jobs. Grandpa said 这些外籍民工, 也可以安居乐业。I said we tend to ignore these foreign workers as if they don’t exist, and we compare with white-collar only. That’s unfair.

Grandpa agreed 不应该瞧不起蓝领,或外籍民工.

I said 很多发达国家,比如日本,美国都尊重蓝领工人,赞扬他们坚守岗位,尽职尽责。他们是社会主体, 和谐社会的基础。

Many African Americans often (upbringing) take pride in their blue-collar jobs. It’s an honest job that supports a family, which also supports a nation.

So if Dabao aspires to be a bus driver or shop assistant, I will support him. It’s better than having no concrete, realistic vision.

[16] practice what I preach: above-average target, really@@

To those who question my self-description that I am one of the parents who don’t care so much about my son’s exam results and only aim for above-average, here’s how I actually practiced what I preach:

  • I tried but stopped private tuition that worked on his weaker exam subjects
  • every day I spend time with my son on renzi, not test preparation
  • I record his daily renzi effort, not his test results
  • every Saturday I spend about 3 hours with my son on fitness training, more than I spend on his math + English combined.
  • everyday I spend time (When grandma is not around) with my son on piano
  • I didn’t blame him at all when he scored 16.5/20 in his math test. He made no careless or calculation mistake.
  • The only help I give on his Math is something unneeded for exams. Every week I would spend some time with him on mental arithmetic — multiplication verses + add/subtract within 20.
  • I didn’t work with him on grammar or English vocab for writing, even though these are needed for his English exams.

[20]I would speak uplifting words iFF dabao=weak

If my kid (meimei?) is genuinely weak in wordy problems, and lacks self-confidence, I would create uplifting words to build up his confidence.

Right now, Am doing the opposite — He is improving but am using harsh words to cut him in half. I do it due to his attitude/motivation.

Sherleen, grandpa and wife (over many months) all pointed out that my words (I would add “perception”) on Dabao’s math standard are too negative. I am at my worst when talking about pattern recognition in wordy problems. I use these words well before I lose my cool.

Grandma sometimes echos my negativity. Perhaps grandma’s attitude/perception is not a role model, but a negative example of anger management. However, It is unfair to put 100% of the blame on grandma. I’m (at least 90%) responsible for my own action.

Grandpa issued the gravest warning — my words would decimate dabao’s self-esteem, confidence.

Sherleen said “uplifting” after she noticed Dabao’s lack of self-esteem. Now I think that for some individuals, affirmative words are a key language of love. I should read the book (online) to understand this one language of love.

[21]dismissive of”positive parent`”

I tend to dismiss the positive style — supportive, encouraging, bonding, lenient, forgiving, rewarding, trusting (each person’s words), believing in each individual

I tend to subscribe to the narratives of the other style — control (to the maximum extent), ownership, discipline, self-discipline, consequences, targets (like salesmen)

Aha — Many of the above keywords are also important to the encouraging style.

PotatoDay chat: screen time rationalized

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19 Aug 2023 (National Potato Day) I had a enlightening chat with boy about screen time. It revealed some double-standards and prejudices in my “system1”

I first set out a hypothetical scenario. A teenager AA around my son’s age, a 12H+/day screen user

  • factor-A: his/her academic progress is acceptable, not affected by screen time, not unable to concentrate or failing to complete homework
  • factor-H: his/her health is unaffected by screen time, including sleep, workout,,,
  • factor-F: his/her family bonding time is unaffected by screen time.
  • factor-S: his/her social interactions are unaffected by screen time.
  • factor-g: he/she doesn’t feel addicted to gaming

Somehow, I would still have problems as a parent or teacher of this kid. I would think this student has too much free time and is not “productive” in his/her spare time. See the bposts on burn^rot.

Then I told my son about a slightly better teenager BB, who spends average 1h/day of her screen time productively, either academically, or learning extra-curriculum content (like recreational reading [1]), or self-improvement in general. I would still say this teenager is less than really diligent, wasting so much free time.

Then I recalled a typical teenager CC in my days (1990s and late 1980s). More like Teenager AA, but instead of digital screens, he spends all his free time hanging out with friends, 打电话, 逛商场/公园/cinema, 钓鱼/捉昆虫, 下馆子(喝饮料),看小说, 看动漫, 看videotape, 看电视,,, basically 吃喝玩乐, while meeting all the factors above. I had the same contempt for CC but somehow more contempt for AA due to the screens. Why?

I told my son that many of those 1990s pastimes were clearly addictive, esp (personal experience) 武侠小说 and to a lesser extent other genres of  novels. But in my 40s I have more worries over adolescent screen addiction. Why?

[1] In fact, my son does spend a few such hours a week on average. He often uses video learning.

— mom’s perception. I guess she worries more about AA than CC.

— factor-S … my son said his screen time actually improves his social interactions with friends. I Choose to believe my son.

— factor-F … my son said he has sufficient family outing time, but I feel at home he is often absent-minded and engrossed in his gadgets ….

— factor-A … mom and dad feel his grades are inconsistent, often hovering around P/F (not enough to get into poly). He has no interest in exam subjects presumably due to screens.

— What’s reasonable vs excessive screen time?
I clock 10H+/day and I feel dependent on blogg … but not considered exessive .. double-standdard? (My recollection of my past and observations of other people are not as accurate.)

E-book and online reading is the default among the cohort 10Y after me such as my UChicago classmates, so a lot of screen time on e-books could be classified as productive screen time like learning.

Based on my observation, I doubt there’s reasonable amount of screen time with my son. It’s crucial to ask about the composition of boy’s screen time? We parents need to demonstrate trust in boy’s integrity when he answers this question. This trust is something rare and invaluable.

Wife and I have complaints about boy’s bedtime hours, eyesight, physical workout, motivation for studies, but look, majority of 13-year-olds have similar issues but their parents are not deseparate or fearful.

— the day after PotatoDay, I had a long call with an IMH counsellor.  Here are some pointers

  • ask boy what he wants. No judgement. Nothing to point out. Don’t lecture. Don’t even teach. It’s hard to be a counsellor for a teenager. It’s even harder to be a parent-cum-counsellor.
  • spend longer hours with boy. Be available for him. Be supportive.
  • Counsellor affirmed that I’m a dedicated father. I try to be the counsellor that boy wants. However, when I threaten to take away his phone, I lose that status.
  • Counsellor reminded me that I need to step away once a while.
  • wife is in pain and needs external help. A lot of the family disharmony seems to stem from her conflict with boy, but this is not a conclusion, not even a tentative conclusion.
  • boy is not too worried about screen time, studies or his future. More worried about his self-image.
  • technology is constantly challenging us parents.

[21]stop pushing boy@academic motivation #Rahul

Background — I told Rahul that my son’s level of effort is lower than his classmates’, despite everything we have tried. He is not fixated on the marks. There’s an abundance of Extrinsic motivators in Singapore, all tied to the test results, but they proved ineffective in the face of his heavy resistance.

Right away, Rahul suggested we try to build his “internal locus of control” i.e. the positive feedback loop linking effort and satisfying result. “Parenting by Logical Consequences”. We want him to experience, see, realize that his effort, not luck, not talent, not parents’ whim, is the real reason for the satisfying result.

Rahul suggested encouraging him on non-academic domains [1] where his resistance to “effort” is lower. Rahul said “(in N months) when he realizes the importance of studies he might come back to studies and apply himself”, drawing a “C” curve in the air.

I think grandpa also said something similar — “give him more time. wait for a few years”.

[1] How about piano, badminton, swimming,

Years ago, I also said that I wish to see one domain where he puts in effort consistently for a long time. Now I think Piano and badminton are success stories. Perhaps we can help him learn programming too, but it would take too much time — my time and his time.

Basically de-emphasize benchmark performance.

I have 51% confidence that U.S. (and Australian) systems are more natural at the primary school level. Some kids learn better in U.S. system, while other kids may learn better in the Singapore system.

[21]Everything that matters is a competition@@

In my mid-20s my dad noticed that I perceive everything as competition… Q: For each item below, is the endeavor/struggle/// mostly personal or fundamentally competitive? Specifically, is it realistic to define success without benchmarking with competitors?

By the way, if we all target a single limited resource [like educational resource, top job positions, or a desirable mate] then competition is inevitable, but in reality people often choose different targets.

Below items are half-grouped. The more obvious/shorter items tend to move up.
— For wellness .. I would say non_competitive. Personal endeavor.
— hobbies .. non-competitive by definition, including so-called competitive hobbies. A hobby is a success if it helps the individual grow, express the self, reach out to a community, regardless of competitive position achieved.
— burn rate and cashflow mgmt .. I would say non_competitive. Some individuals spend $10k/M but they are doing fine due to high income. I spend $2k/M and feel good, but how do I compare to those supersavers who spend $700/M? I think both can be doing fine.
— For personal investments … non_competitive.
Even if my portfolio is lower return, higher risk, it is Fine. If my portflio risk is too high, then it becomes a problem but not really due to peer comparison. (In contrast, if you run a fund then you must compete for mindshare. )
— for family livelihood .. fundamentally non_competitive. For most people, salary doesn’t depend on competition.
jolt: I’m in the minority to perceive salary as fundamentally determined by competitive job interviews.
— family harmony, unity .. non_competitive
— parenting .. fundamentally non_competitive.
However (jolt), exam-oriented parenting can be competitive to some extent like “want to make my kids perform better than those families”.

Some parents even set a target to send their kids to some top school. In such a case, success depends on benchmarking.

I feel I have grown wiser, stronger, mellowing up. I now care slightly less about exams or top schools.
— important exams .. fundamentally competitive, as the top schools only want to recruit cream of the crop. Some students are not competitive. Some treat studies like serious hobbies.

In NUS, First-Class honors is bell-curve based. In UChicago, many examiners use bell-curve. However, if result is either P or F like driving tests, without a grade, then that exam is non_competitive. You are up against the examiner’s standard, not peer benchmark. The minimum requirement to pass is non_competitive. We often see the entire batch complete a program.

Reading a transcript or a GPA score, the exam results are non_competitive, since the reader has no idea of the distribution of scores. For example, I scored a C in sociology, which was the average score, but it looked bad on my transcript. Also, my Beijing high school transcript shows very high scores by Singapore standard.
— job interview .. competitive at least in the high-end tech interviews, because these are elite teams. QH.Dong said something like “GTD criteria is too low. Probably 80% of candidates can clear that bar. We need to find someone stronger than existing team members in at least one area, to complement the our mix.”

The more senior, the more you hear “seeking the strongest candidate that our budget can attract.”

If an employer targets a salary below the national median, then recruiter probably has a hard time filling the vacancies with qualified people .. non_competitive . Agilent/Spherion interviews were non_competitive because they want to fill all the vacancies quickly.

— dating: competitive among the “desirables”. You could be a fine person, but (more often than the other way!) in the dating market you may appear less attractive, less humorous, less resource-rich, less “suitable” as a life partner. Mate selection is fundamentally “picking the best mate that I could grab”.

jolt: I have carefully omitted personality match — the notion that what I want (in a mate) differs from what my volleyball teammate wants. Well, I choose to focus on the fundamental and universal desires. At the fundamental level, we both desire the same type of mate. Therefore, competitive.

Some people say they simply want to find someone “barely good enough” i.e. without major personality mismatches. I think this attitude is more common in arranged marriages, because the arranger can’t give you 200 choices. Also more common among older singles.

After the initial dating, how about the effort to maintain the love relationship? non_competitive

— academic research and publishing .. non_competitive. However, there’s a minimum standard in this _profession_. In some influential journals or conferences, you would need to produce outstanding findings to be accepted. Consider contributors to the Christian magazine [[parenting teens]]. Clearly a serious hobby. Yet to be accepted, your content has to be non-trivial, professionally-written.

In contrast, teaching profession is non_competitive.

If you publish only on a blog, or you self-finance a print publication, then it’s like a serious hobby.

 

##more spare time can”Buy”me__ #XR

Now spare time is scarce, but in retirement, spare time would be too much.


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XR described to me that (lack of) spare time means so much to him — coaching his son on Chinese; coding drill; personal investment; … However, if he is given 50 hours of spare time, can he be productive in those 50 hours or just 5 hours?

update as of Oct 2020: My Spare time was more scarce esp. during UChicago days. Now I have a rare lifestyle with more spare time, so now I believe most people including XR would not be productive if given this much spare time.

Original title: What can more spare time including leaves “buy”me? Answer:

  • lower-body flexibility; cardio fitness
  • more therapeutic, reflective blogging
  • more (productive or fun) time with kids
  • more QQ and coding drill?
  • slightly more exploration of local codebase on my own, without time pressure.
  • more wellness research, for self-care and teaching my kids. Parents spend a lot of time talking to kids about wellness.
  • more calls to Beijing
  • Spare time did buy me lots of blogg→evaluation@life→more satisfactions

However, limiting factor is not only spare time (like O2) but absorbency:

  • insufficient absorbency for localSys
  • insufficient absorbency for jogging, stretch
  • insufficient absorbency for coding drill

Jolt: Before I scold ah-boy about his absorbency deficiency, look in the mirror.