Context: noHunger到家..out@ctrl #unexpected
— Analog 1: libido .. In my teenage years, I had very “healthy” libido, and I wanted to control it. I realized that if I lived in a shared bedroom then I won’t feel any “appetite out of control”. As soon as I had a bedroom to myself, within minutes I would find the urge/desire/appetite overwhelming. Sexual “drive” is a driving force and 8 times out of 10 you can’t stop it. Availability and freedom are two sides of the same coin. (“temptation” too). This Availability leads to an overwhelming “appetite”.
However, any “enjoyment” can lead to temptation and loss of control. If due to health, or short separation or pregnancy your partner can’t support your sexual needs, an out-of-control libido would compel the individual to seek other sexual partners.
李靓蕾直言王力宏在很多城市都有“好朋友”，“你坦承这些是你的问题，你没有办法控制自己” but there’s no such problem in a prison, i.e. no availability.
— Analog 2: Alcoholic treatment centers, smoke cessation centers, screen-addiction treatment camps, and jails for drug addicts provide an “easy” environment for self-restraint. No availability, no struggle, no torture. However, you can’t stay in jail forever, as Bindi said.
When you come out of the the physical environment, you must rely on self-restraint. You must face the availability challenge.
— kidney health brochure and my reflections
Angelina Jolie .. chose to have her breasts removed.. loss of pride, joy and pleasure, but compare that loss to the pain of kidney failure or long-term cancer management!
No [:=zero or very low] pleasure in either alcohol, salt, or gaming … is loss of enjoyment, but I wish to have this extremely boring life .. more a blessing than a curse. Mass media (beyond advertisement) portray pleasures in food, alcohol, tobacco, sex, extreme sports … In contrast, my chosen lifestyle is boring. Boring lifestyle is correlated with less pain, less bodily harm [incl. illnesses]
Kidney patients have many diet restrictions. I guess some of them may consider the hypothetical question “what would I tell my younger self?” I think some may face the stark choice between 2 lifestyles
- longevity as the priority… Restrict calories, sweet, alcoholic foods. Is such a life worth re-living? Perhaps this is a Buddhist perspective but I want to downplay the Buddist influence.
- pleasure as a basic priority … but plenty of sufferings down the road
Imagine this scenario .. After acquiring a substance dependency (alcohol, tobacco or mild drugs) early in life, a self-disciplined adult decides that a life without alcohol (Choice A) is not worth living. After due diligence, she/he concludes that a shorter life expectancy like 70Y (Choice B) is better than a 10Y-longer, but boring life without alcohol (Choice A). A dangerous question for the young, a question of free will. More than 50% of the people secretly wish that the consequence of those pleasures in Choice (B) is a painless death at an earlier age compared to the boring life. Most of these individuals underestimate the length and severity of ill health during the declining years.