I always feel guilty about wasting water, energy or (more frequently) hard-earned money.

I still waste some, every now and then, but I don’t give up and accept my wasteful acts. 95% of the people around me (mostly Chinse) don’t seem to care as much as I do. I often feel most folks simply don’t care about “small” wastes. My family members seem to do the same. That’s the reality I need to accept.

I still want to improve my own habits + my family members’ habits in this regard, but I always overestimate my ability to change them. I’m stubborn in my refusal to accept that “reality”. See passive_acceptence.

My attitude is possibly at the root of endless communication failures. The cost is rather high in terms of harmony, family bond, and happy marriage.