I told Bindi the Cigna counselor about my nightly battles with temptation and the out-of-control appetite …

Q: how do I tell if I had a win or a loss?
%%A: My rule is “no eating without strong appetite”. Roughly, if I felt some legitimate hunger when I started eating, then it was a win.

Legitimate .. The judgement is extremely non-objective, biased.

Case study: Tonight ( before the call to Cigna) I came home not feeling hungry. But I had very little food since I woke up. When I saw the food in kitchen I felt the appetite. Is that legit? I immediately rejected it, but on what ground? I guess I was still comparing to 2018.

eg: If at 11pm I decide to work on my resume, or tech xx, and feel a “hunger”, then it’s not a lost battle !?

Now I think this battle may not be that important, but I won’t give up.