Big part of my cabin fever is diet loss@control, esp. the wrong-time temptation. I’m used to be in control, so the loss of control is devastating, /degenerative/ and destructive.

Self-hate, unreasonable expectation … are part of the underlying….

What we need is compassion and self-care. In my preoccuation with BMI, I fail to recognize and celebrate the huge effort and success in

• avoid family meal when not hungry
• starch
• fat
• raw veg + fruits
• chia seeds

Pehraps my diet is not lost, but BMI battle is in decline? If that’s the case then we need the bao3shan1 strategy.

Perhaps the increased calorie intake (presumably starch+fat) is directly due to stress-coping.

Perhaps what I need is warrior diet — Go without starch/fat for 16H everyday.